With the government shut down we are officially homeless. Our home was in a camper parked at a National
Forest Campground. Thankfully, we can
hook it up to our truck and move to another great place.
We had just talked with the district Ranger and she gave us
permission to keep working for two more months.
It is a wonderful campsite and great people to work for. Only days later we got the news that we had
41 hours to vacate. Usually it takes me
a week to prepare after camping in one spot for so long so it was quite
challenging. I thought to myself, how
would Washington like it if they had 41 hours to leave their home and have the
electric and water shut off in 41 hours?
I don’t blame the National Forest Service, they have been amazing to
work for and with. They are also
suffering, much worse than us.
I have to admit, though, I am not used to working outside
the home and for other people. I got out
of the Navy in 1994 and have only done a few things to earn money since. The office politics and dealing with work
problems have been quite difficult for me.
I am called to be a wife and a mother and when I stepped outside of that
calling I sure had a hard time.
Shae and Hanna did over half the work, but I still had to do
a lot. I dealt mostly with the people,
which is normally wonderful as we love the people that come there. I didn’t realize that there would be so many
problems, though.
I failed so many times.
If I could go back I would make different choices – often.
Why did I fail so miserably?
God had me there to cause me to grow and show the sin in my
heart, among other reasons. I know that He
didn’t want me to fail; He wanted me to learn and change. I know He has plans for me and sometimes the
hidden faults and sins hold us back from His perfect will.
It is a difficult and uncomfortable process to have those
sins exposed and confronted.
I could now continue and share with you all the wonderful
things that happened at the campground and how there are so many good things
that our family experienced that I cannot even count them. But, that would diminish the seriousness of
my sin. It would say, yes I was wrong
but oh well, focus on the good things I did.
I think God wants us to focus on our sin, when it is revealed, and work
to overcome it with His help. At that
point I can remember the good and the right choices I made, which were also by
God’s grace.
I will share the good in another post. For now, I apologize for the bad choices I
made and hope that I can overcome and move forward. I will put the past behind and remember today
is a new day. I have learned from the
past and with God’s help I will not make the same mistakes again.
Moving forward to the higher call and shaking of the sin
that would so easily ensnare me.
If we chose to go back when the government starts working
again, it will be a new day, a new me, and a humbled heart.
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